i know both of my friends are flying off to UK this coming September.
i tried to do some sort of therapy to myself to avoid further jealousy.
and somehow it works.
but not until both of them keep trying to ask me all sort of Qs about preparation to UK
i'm so sick and fed up of myself.
i know they need help.
so i tried my best to tell them what i know.
and deep inside,i can't hide my jealousy.
i am such a person that have strong jealousy.
it's fine if they just stop asking Qs about UK.
i don't even want to mention UK anymore because i miss UK.
what's done is done!
i'm done with my year 3
so,just move on LILY!
I have a tough,rough,hard time of final year waiting for me.
i need to focus on my final year,not them!
i mind my own business.
terima kasih.
that's all!
*
Why did i keep dreaming funny things?
i dreamed about him and him.
i just hope that my first relationship really ends.
i am tired of dealing all those shits.
stop blaming me because you claimed that you've spent too much time with me,so you ended up deserting your course work!
because i know you for 4 years,i know you're lazy,you'll only start to do your coursework when it's almost due.poor time management,konon-nya!
stop using me!you'll use my things without my permission just to cheer your friends up.that's so rude!
i remember asking you why you chose to spend more time with your boy friends but not me.
and you said it's because they are way lot nicer than me.
so i went speechless and my heart hurts when you said that.
and you keep saying me throwing tantrum at you!
it's because if you treated me nicer just like other couples do,i will feel more love.
we argued always.
i think it's because we're not meant to be together.
we don't have similar personality.
we don't correct our mistake.
we don't tolerate with each other.
may be we don't even love each other.
you just love being alone,you love your games,movies,dramas,friends,and families.
so when i was in UK, you decided to just be friends with me.
and we are friends now! no more turn back!
i'll choose to not remember what we have been through!
i will start all over again to be a new person in front of you,just like friend that meet for the first time!
people still think that we are couple.
i chose not to tell them now,i will let time proves everything,soon or later they will know.
and for another him
i don't think we have any opportunity to become lovers.
so just be friends,
fate will tie us together if we meant to be together.
HAPPY SINGLE LIFE!
*POSTED BY ♥ lily ♥ ON Wednesday, July 17, 2013 @ 9:24 PM
